Remember the teachers who I said hadn't shown any jerk-tendencies? [no]

Well. Not only did I get bawled out in class for talking, [he deserved that] but I was quickly bawled out for rubbing my legs. That's right, she keeps that room at a temperature that bothers ME, [try 60 degrees] and she gets mad at me for rubbing my legs to keep warm.

Told me, quite word-for-word, to get over it.

It's like Spanish all over again. [but i'm taking spanish with the same other teacher, so it'll be like three times]. This time, I'm writing down everything I don't say in that class. Every little comment that I think of. I respect her as a person simply because I don't know her. I respect her as a teacher because I've heard she's a good teacher. However, my respect for her as an authority figure is quickly dwindling.

The only thing keeping me from bringing the hurt right back to her is the fact that she'll refer me to the office, and then I'll have to deal with people that I actually respect. And maybe don't respect me back.

I hate the school system. I'll find a way around it, don't worry. I'll take my hits. I'll bide my time.

And then I will strike. Maybe publicly. If nothing else, I'll find it funny.
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In other news, I'm feeling really bitter. And tired beyond all reason. When I was born I "almost" had a glandular problem, which only called for a tiny bit of medication. Which I stopped taking in '03, simply because the dosage was so small.

Well, as it turns out, my thyroid might still be a bit whacked. The hormones involved are within tolerances, but barely. Basically, the symptoms are lethargy. And arrested growth, but being 6'1", that doesn't bother me. I'm sure there are more serious outcomes, and I don't care. But I'm crap tired.
And I'd heartily like to wretch my figurative heart out.
And my dad's been dead and gone for years.
And I offend people without trying, just by communicating in a normal fashion.
And I'm lonely.
And I'm addicted to Placebo, of all things.
And my family is being stretched to the breaking point.
And I'd like to take a cry, but haven't in years. (HELLO, personal!)
And I'm starting to hate people who act dumb. Hate them.

Yeah. Way too bitter.

EDIT: Tuesday, the 28th.

I managed to swallow/inhale a great amount of water doing butterfly, today. So now there's the possibility that I have water sitting in my lungs. Which might be...unpleasant later. Whatever DID happen, (I'm paranoid about my insides,) I've definitely noticed a change in the sensation of breathing. And it's annoying/freaking me out.

It was almost scary, though. I think I had a kind of asthma attack...

I was doing butterfly, a horribly tiring and awkward stroke, and I came up for air and got water in my mouth. Not a big deal, just swallow the extra, spit out the rest, and come up for air again early. When I did the last step, I gasped for air to make up for time and energy. The water not only went in the wrong pipe, it ONLY went in the wrong pipe.

I could feel my lungs expanding and trying to draw air in, but nothing was happening. My throat closed up, and everything. I grabbed the lane line, hacking and coughing, worming my way over to the wall. Eventually I stopped bothering with the coughing, (it's gotten to be more of an intentional action, because I'm cool like that) but the feeling...is still there. It's weird.

You know what? I think I AM a masochist. In certain aspects. Not...like that.

Feeling pretty high strung.

My school doesn't have any jerks for teachers...
...we just have all the ones who shouldn't be involved in education. I don't know which is worse.

I can sort of relate. I'm 6'2" and born with something that I don't care to mention...but it plagues me. Hopefully my intentional ambiguity hasn't made you get any ideas, because it's not serious and I shouldn't care, but I'm incredibly self conscious, when it comes to this anyways.
» The-Muffin-Man on 2007-08-28 12:58:54

I've read this a few times
» Unicornasaurus on 2007-08-28 09:02:19

Oops.

And I still don't know what to say.
» Unicornasaurus on 2007-08-28 09:02:32

For the longest time, I thought "placebo" was pronounced Place-bow.

School gets better in college.
» Dilated on 2007-08-28 09:46:49

Maybe there is.
» Unicornasaurus on 2007-08-28 09:55:19

I didn't necessarily say I had anything at the moment. I actually didn't and don't. But now that you've challenged me, I will.
Lungs do constrict when you have an asthma attack. It's kind of just a ticking feeling in your throat, if it's minor. Very uncomfortable.
» Unicornasaurus on 2007-08-28 10:25:47

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